Disappointed.

The title says it all.

I guess I'm just disappointed in myself, and the things I've done, and haven't done.

The holiday came and went, and while I must admit I did have a good time. (Some days more than others) I am left with a feeling of emptiness that I had thought I had disposed of, yet am getting accustomed to. I wish I knew how to deal with it.

It seems I'll be having a roommate for a little bit, which is good. A buddy needs a roof over his head while he gets things sorted out, and I am all too happy to oblige. Hopefully all goes well.

I get to play hockey tonight, and while I am excited to go head to head against Eso for the first time in a few years, I can't help but feel like the wind has been driven from my sails motivation wise. *shrug*

Work starts again tomorrow, the thought of making a living again is something I need to get back into my skull. School took a nose dive, with my lack of commitment.

I look forward to eventually getting to the gym and starting to burn off this useless weight that surrounds me. Once money gets better I'll get that ball rolling.

Anyways, I guess I'm just feeling sorry for myself. I made a friend feel bad and although it wasn't intentional, it has left a foul taste in my mouth. Maybe after I have remedied the situation I'll start to feel better about myself.

Take care my friends. Lets hope this year brings a happier, cheerful Ryan into light.

-Ryan Last, Exiled.